Dissapointment

....Pardon Me.....

...I am better now in ways...

....But I am still a woman...

...Pardon me....

...Its just one of those days.....

The Invitation

“It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing. It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive. It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals, or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain. I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide or fade it or fix it. I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own; if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of you fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic, or to remember the limitations of being a human. It doesn't interest me if the story you're telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself; if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul. I want to know if you can be faithful and therefore be trustworthy. I want to know if you can see the beauty even when it is not pretty everyday, and if you can source your life from its presence. I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand on the edge of a lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, "Yes!" It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done for the children. It doesn't interest me who you are, or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back. It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away. I want to know if you can be alone with yourself, and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments."

~The Invitation", by Oriah Mountain Dreamer

"Road"

For the longest time, I have questioned myself as to which path should I take? The path I have planned for myself? or the path where God wants me to be? The road is easier on this side of the road. The road is smooth and I can elude all the unwanted stems of the trees where I pass by. It seemed all planned. Although still uncertain of what lies ahead, I can control how I can get there. Or should I take the other side of the road, where it's bumpy on every sides. A promise of not smooth sailing travel but has a lifeline each and every time I needed one. There will be no detour and hanging branches will be a hassle since it always taps on your back. Making you realize you are going on the wrong way. Although the promise is very clear but the journey can't guarantee a safe one.

The time is running out, and I have exhausted my strength to measure the logical way of how to solve my confusion. But one thing I am sure of right now..... I can lift them up to God and in time He will reveal the road I should take and He will be on my side each and every step of the way.

The Scriptures says:

I will lead blind Israel down a new path, guiding them along an unfamiliar way. I will brighten the darkness before them and smooth out the road ahead of them. Yes, I will indeed do these things; I will not forsake them.

~ Isaiah 42:16

Love is the presence of the Lord

♥It's so cute ♥

"There is nothing more precious

than seeing the love of your life beside you,

while you held hands with the Lord"

Steady My Heart

Wish it could be easy

Why is life so messy

Why is pain a part of us

There are days I feel like

Nothing ever goes right

Sometimes it just hurts so much

But You're here

You're real

I know I can trust You

Even when it hurts

Even when it's hard

Even when it all just falls apart

I will run to You

Cause I know that You are

Lover of my soul

Healer of my scars

You steady my heart (2x)

I'm not gonna worry

I know that You got me

Right inside the palm of your hand

Each and every moment

What's good and what gets broken

Happens just the way that You plan

And I will run to You

You're my refuge in Your arms

And I will sing to You

Cause of everything You are

You steady my heart (2x)

"The waiting seasons are made to serve You and worship You and be all I am for You. So when the big moments arrive, I'll be completely ready to be and do what I wouldn't have thought possible, without You."

~ Jael Garcia, (my friend)

As the bible says: "I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing." ~ John 15:5

........ I know God that apart from you I can't do anything, on my own I am weak... but so as long you are with me, I have the courage to let go of the things I never thought possible. Even if it hurts but you will steady my heart.