A New Journey

As a child I use to see the world as a playground, how once dull and miserable space can turn into a mystified castle of fairies living in the deepest hollows of the ceiling and mermaids awaits to dance in the water beneath. As maturity surpass my childhood dreams, I have seen the world a different light from fairy to party. I have grown the fantasy of once I believe existed. Realizing prince charming doesn't appear when you kiss a frog nor loving a beast will make him the man you dream of. There are a lot incomparable situations which intellect and experience overcome dreams. 

Reality is a dreadful truth that takes the fictions out of you. Some may unable to succeed others outgrown and excel. I have never imagined until now, as you sit and know there's a new life inside of you waiting to be born everything changes. Its a relief knowing you are a true woman and capable of conceiving and there's unexplainable joy and desire to look forward to every moment as you wait. Nothing can ever compare the feeling of having one. No words would be enough but a simple act of gesture to appreciate the blessing the Father above has given you "thank you".

Happiness overflows knowing that someone would be with you to share the moment together. To have and to hold from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and cherish always. The famous line used to mean nothing but now meant more than my life. I made the right decision and I would never trade it for anything else. 

A new journey awaits, this maybe a new adventure and I'm very enthusiastic about it. This journal had kept the joy and sorrows of my life but it will never cease and it will continue to grow as the oak tree standing tall. Thank you for reading and walking with me in this journey... Tie your shoes and let's continue to walk to every journey life offers us to be.

"One Cold Day"

It was raindrops on my window...
A touch of rain on my hands...
A month of commemoration...
A sheer voice of love at its longingness....




....This music plays on my background....
.... It's quite fitting....

Stirling

My favourite Violinist of the West "Lindsey Stirling".
I admire her talent and how she uses them to help and inspire others.


Below is one of her pieces, I truly adore.








.... It inspires courage to change and never be afraid to do it on your own. I like people who are brave enough to do what they believe in and encourage others to do the same. I love her music and I love what she does. A beautiful person indeed.....

Spiral

"Spiral"


What pleasure to have it?
To have all but receive none.
To be going around in circles,
But never gone far.

What pleasure it was!
When you have seen it all,
Abundantly it flows,
But never kept one.

It springs like a shadow,
It run around your head.
Full of vivid colors,
To color our life.

Have you ever seen?
From where it all begun?
Does it even have a clue?
Follow the tip to where it ends.

It will lead you there.
Just not typical.
Run through it not above it.
Flow in balance.

Maybe, then you will find.
What you have been looking for.
In the confusion of life.
You will get stuck here in Spiral.












.... You can say anything, but I'm not gonna be "Typical".......
.... Another rebellious expression of self that so desire to be different....
.......................................... I like it   ...............................................

All of Me

"Always Will"



It feels years ago I have known...
Someday our road will cross...
But like any other story...

It depicts, describe, and portray...
But never the reality....
Of what it was all about....

All of me loves all of you...
More than words....
Have shown and possessed...

In a moment we have shared....
To the memories...
We hold on and move forward...

I will always love you...
Always will...
And in all loving ways....



...... I just so love this song.....








All of Me
By John Legend


What would I do without your smart mouth
Drawing me in, and you kicking me out
Got my head spinning, no kidding, I can’t pin you down
What’s going on in that beautiful mind
I’m on your magical mystery ride
And I’m so dizzy, don’t know what hit me, but I’ll be alright


My head’s under water
But I’m breathing fine
You’re crazy and I’m out of my mind


‘Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I’ll give my all to you
You’re my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I’m winning
‘Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you


How many times do I have to tell you
Even when you’re crying you’re beautiful too
The world is beating you down, I’m around through every mood
You’re my downfall, you’re my muse
My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues
I can’t stop singing, it’s ringing, in my head for you


Cards on the table, we’re both showing hearts
Risking it all, though it’s hard


I give you all of me
And you give me all of you

Walter Mitty

"You should know those people worked really hard to build this magazine. They believed in the motto"

~ Walter Mitty

.... This was actually my favorite quote from the movie, Walter returned to his former office to return the negative that he was missing reason for him to get fired. I like how he really had valued his work all those years he worked for the company and to me that's passion. Passion is the greatest reason why people become successful in whatever they do. Whether its work, family, church duty or simple recreation alone or with friends. Its the drive to live, love for life itself is passion. It was such a loss how the new management fail to see people like Walter. They are the core of the whole company. The "LIFE" magazine as they know it, will not be as popular as it is if not for the people who works hard every day to bring the story to the table. We owe it a lot to them.

"To see the world, 

things dangerous to come to,

to see behind walls, draw closer, 

to find each other, and to feel. 

That is the purpose of life."

~ Walter Mitty ~

..... There was a sense of intrigue and suspense as Walter take every zone moment to journey his secret life. I love this part of the story because I can totally relate. I don't know if you ever do but I usually had those "zone out moments" but unlike Walter Mitty I often had it unnoticed. This may be weird but watching Walter Mitty inspired a lot of what I used to be interested in. It reminded me of the passion I used to have and made me grab the camera I just got and start capturing life as it happens. I love Walter Mitty. I really do. The movie in general was like heroes-mission-impossible-seven-years-in-tibet-2012-you've-got-mail-ish type of  a movie. I think its very creative in a way you'll be able to plot a story like that in a non-fiction movie. 

"Sayang Na Nakaraan"

I was reading facebook this morning and I encounter this words "Sayang na nakaraan" coming from I guess a unhappy-bitternacious-single girl? boy? or was it gay? I can't really remember. Anyhow, what I would like to point out is: I love the fact that I was born on a Valentines day because I get to share it with love. Although, I recently observed while some are so excited for the things that may happen since it "love month" there are others who are  just unexcited about the coming heart's day. But if you stare at those three words it can actually mean a lot more depending on how people choose to see it. I guess I see those words differently. If you have to look back to your past, what do you see? or what do you choose to see? Then those three words can mean differently. To me it's like these: I choose to move the "ng" word which I think of as the "nice and good" and remove "na" which is the "not admirable" things to make it better and to look like this:

"Saya ng nakaraan"

A simple equation but I think much worthy to remember.

"Choose to see the good memories rather than the bad ones,

It will make it more easier to see Valentines day with anticipation.

You don't want to miss out from your soon to be 

miss or mister right"

......Something to think about this coming Valentines day......

Now what do you choose to see in your past?

The Walk

I have always love Yiruma pieces but I think the most memorable piece for me would be the music he was playing while I was walking in my most beautiful white dress.

"A River Flows In You"
by Yiruma
Lyrics Translation in English


There's a road inside your heart made just for you
Don't be scared take your first step and then take two
Pain will come but I believe you can endure
Further down that road just trust a little more

Holding you, holding you
It's in you
River flows in you
Slow it down, slow it down
That river flows inside me too
Holding you, holding you
It's in you
River flows in you
Waiting now, waiting now
Just be strong
You will make it through

If you let me I will give my heart to you
So that I can feel you what else can I do
Can you hold on just a little longer still
In your heart if you believe it then you will

Holding you, holding you
It's in you
River flows in you
Slow it down, slow it down
That river flows inside me too
Holding you, holding you
It's in you
River flows in you
Waiting now, waiting now
Just be strong
You will make it through

Holding you, holding you
It's in you
River flows in you
Slow it down, slow it down
That river flows inside me too
Holding you, holding you
It's in you
River flows in you
Waiting now, waiting now
Just be strong
You will make it through

Holding you, holding you
It's in you
River flows in you
Slow it down, slow it down
That river flows inside me too
Holding you, holding you
It's in you
River flows in you
Waiting now, waiting now
Just be strong
You will make it through


Source: Translation in English

A Happy Birthday

Greetings for someone dear to me... ^_^

 

"Passion of Love"

A love built by sparks and fire,
Is quite dangerous in the end.
Too little it may die,
Too much of it can crash and burn.

A love formed by passion,
last longer than it should.
For we live by the desire of it.
To have the passion is to live.

Living is the passion of loving.
One and the other coexist.
Without either of the two,
Its impossible to live.




....Mhelai


...Another day of my randomness.....

"Turning Pages"

As I begin a new chapter in my life,
I have decided to write and start afresh.
The past is behind me now and I'm moving on.
As the blank pages follows through,
I am hopeful for new wonderful journey.
Because I have chosen to be,
To be at peace, and not in pieces.

I am not closing previous chapters,
I am simply turning the pages.



.......Mhelai




"Turning Page" by Sleeping At Last
Cover Version of Ciara Catalla
(I just love her rendition of this song)




.."Turning Page"

I’ve waited a hundred years
But I’d wait a million more for you
Nothing prepared me for
What the privilege of being yours would do

If I had only felt the warmth within your touch
If I had only seen how you smile when you blush
Or how you curl your lip when you concentrate enough
Well I would have known
What I was living for all along
What I’ve been living for

Your love is my turning page
Where only the sweetest words remain
Every kiss is a cursive line
Every touch is a redefining phrase

I surrender who I’ve been for who you are
For nothing makes me stronger than your fragile heart
If I had only felt how it feels to be yours
Well I would have known
What I’ve been living for all along
What I’ve been living for

Though we’re tethered to the story we must tell
When I saw you, well I knew we’d tell it well
With a whisper we will tame the vicious seas
Like a feather bringing kingdoms to their knees



..... I so love her rendition of this song.... ^_^

Stuck in love

Doing the Sunday shift tonight in the office, couldn't be more exciting knowing there's only two people including me to work on a Sunday Night. Mostly my Sundays were spent chatting with friends, bonding with my family, going to church or just a regular talk with a good friend. It was a routine to end the day going to bed but today is an exception. This is not about complaining of coming to work on a Sunday Night but for a fact since not much thing to do I was able to watch a such spectacular movie to make the night more meaningful. A tear jerker atleast for me; It was about the wife's broken promise and the husband keeping his. A daughter wounded love for her mother, and a son finding his writing skills in a journey of his youth. Nevertheless the story practically evolve focusing on the family how one find each love, passion and journey by getting "stuck in love". Its really heart warming, emotionally striking for someone who once in their lifetime got bitten by the same love tragedy. But this movie portrayed how inviolable love should be, knowing that even in the most distressing situation. People can get lost but the most important thing is to welcome them back, when they finally find their way home. I like what Stephen King said:

"The most important thing is

The hardest to say"

~ Stephen King ~

Watching the movie, taught me that loving a person doesn't always mean staying in love with them when love is reciprocated but get stuck in love. Knowing that if they once choose to wait for you, they will always come back. "Hate the sin, but not the sinner". To keep the commitment you once made even if one choose to let go. Loving needs to be unconditional, which distinct it from merely concerning or longing. To love is to give, without receiving. To be "stuck in love" is just simply loving despite anything. You just choose to care, understand and to keep loving nothing less.

I Won't Love You Any Less

If you make me stay outside

For a glance that lasts the night,

If you put me in distress,

I won't love you any less.

I won't love you any less.

If you twist my fragile heart,

And it breaks into pieces in the dark,

If you leave a dangerous mess,

I won't love you any less.

I won't love you any less.

If I try to hold your hand,

If I try to make you bend,

If you start callin' me obsessed,

I won't love you any less.

I won't love you any less.

Sha la la la la la la la la la la la,

Sha la la la la la la la la la la laaa,

Sha la la la.

When I'm old and grey,

I've got no wings but you've flown away,

You've put me at quite a test,

But I won't love you any less.

No, I won't love you any less.

Butterfly

Butterfly

Walking on a way home,

Walking on the same path.

A road of sunny and gay,

Now gloomy and sad.

I must have slept and miss my stop,

but I was wide awake  with it on my lap.

A radiant glow on my face,

Which lost after may day.

Pleasures of once knowing,

Binds my heart that is burning.

How can a butterfly hurts?

And stings in my hands.

I never believe what was said,

cause' I know better than plead.

There's more to love than to brag,

In the end, it will all come out.

In the garden, to see.

Butterfly flies so free.

To choose where to go.

To choose where to be.

....I couldn't came up with a better introduction for this poem I just created but it's just one of those randomness days that I can create poems such as this. I have never known such feeling of wanting to be in the same moment but different time. Wherein you can possibly do whatever you can so freely like a butterfly....

I leave you with a song I had on my background while writing this poem,

Bangon Pilipinas

It's heart breaking the situation in Tacloban, dead people everywhere but left unburied. Hungry survivors with no shelter to sleep. Bruised children wearing dirty clothes and no slippers on their feet. It's too painful to watch news lately and words are not even enough to express such sorrow and tragedy. Although its amazing how people all over different countries reach their helping hands towards the Philippines and thankful to all the kind souls who donated, extend their prayers and even came here to take part and volunteer. From the bottom of my Pinoy Heart;

"Maraming maraming salamat po"

which means "Thank you, very much" .

Many of you might also feel that our government could have done better and I couldn't agree more but no one is to blame. Nobody wants what had happened in Tacloban. But our country was not prepared for such hulking calamity. I think being among the third world country, this is what you could expect but this does not mean we are not improving. I am deeply saddened by the recent news and I'm compelled to urge the government to realize Yolanda came for a purpose although devastating that the lives of many had to suffer. There is still hope for the Philippine government and I believe "Babangon ang Pilipinas". For the President, "CHANGE is POSSIBLE". A more HONEST and LOVING SERVICE among the Filipinos disregard past conflicts and work for the common good. Focus on the "real issue" and not political gain. Learning from these experiences is good but people need action for such crisis. If the nation's ordinary people can measure great ways to implement rescue and emergency management the government must know it all at first hand. Officials can learn a lot from volunteers, giving without asking, ready and so eager to be use for the sole purpose of helping the needy even if the only thing they can take home is "JOY" of knowing even for a minute they have serve their purpose to make this nation a better place and for us its more than enough. 

Here a video of Tacloban then and now...

"Let's continue to pray for the people of Visayas Region"

B_A_N_G_O_N      P_I_L_I_P_I_N_A_S

"I will sing of your strength, 

In the morning I will sing of your love;

For you are my fortress,

my refuge in times of trouble."

~Psalm 59:16

The Filipino Spirit Is Waterproof

These past few days maybe you have heard about the "Super Typhoon" Yolanda that hit our country and had caused tremendous damage to my mother's hometown Tacloban, Leyte. It was devastating to see how vastly damage it is. My heart breaks for the many people who have lost their loved ones. I haven't heard from some of my relatives living there and still praying for their safety and hoping all of those who have survived will find food, shelter and comfort. In this time of great need, I'm hopeful that soon this too shall pass. Our country have experienced the worst typhoon ever known yet still standing. If there is one thing I'm truly proud of my fellow Filipinos would be their capacity to withstand trials with a glowing spirit. To be generous despite lacking, happiness in times of despair, and a hope during discouragements. Unites as one in every part of the world and if you are one of my "kababayans" you would understand when I say let's "kapit bisig" there is no exact words to describe it in English but I think the closest would be "To hold  each others arms" and "Sujetar los brazos" in Spanish. It's now a known way of living when every one unite to do their part in helping each member of the family who needed help. For me, the best way to really help is by volunteering but nowadays there are tons of ways to extend our hands even in a distance.

Sharing to you some of the organizations I am part of:

1. UNICEF

2. Victory Fort

3. ABS-CBN

Come and join me to help the needy like what Mother Teresa once said:

“It's not how much we give 

but how much love we put into giving.” 

― Mother Teresa

Thank you for taking the time to read my blog and let's continue to pray for all the people of the Visayas region. Praying that people who have lost will find comfort, to those who have not yet been found may find peace, and to those who have survived will find joy despite of what had happened. The joy of knowing that God has given them another lifetime to live.

Chasing Cars

I was listening to this song "Chasing Cars" by Snow Patrol and I got hooked. I have heard it way back but it never made sense to me. I guess one of the ways to appreciate a good song is when at a given moment you can somehow relate to its meaning. Despite the tragedy of what is happening you choose to see the good side of things and no matter how unrealistic things may seem you still think somehow it could work ergo "Chasing Cars".

"Chasing Cars"

We'll do it all

Everything

On our own

We don't need

Anything

Or anyone

If I lay here

If I just lay here

Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know

How to say

How I feel

Those three words

Are said too much

They're not enough

If I lay here

If I just lay here

Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told

Before we get too old

Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time

Chasing cars

Around our heads

I need your grace

To remind me

To find my own

If I lay here

If I just lay here

Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told

Before we get too old

Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am

All that I ever was

Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where

Confused about how as well

Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here

If I just lay here

Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Dream

It's been a while since I wrote something here, but life changing experiences always is to blame. I can never say that it's all for the better but all I know was I learned new things. This is probably the most random blog I could write for this year. Well, I guess I didn't wrote a lot for this year to include this one. Anyways, I woke up this morning and I feel soulful like I always been. If there's any change in my life that I would really be proud of? Is my choice of music. Music has always been there for me, bless my parents for my name. I'm really starting to love it. But I always change my choice of music depending on the mood it sets me. Today is one of them. I am up for a poem I guess the first to be posted out of the many I have written. This will be a treat for someone I know.

Dream

In the past months, I have been out in the world.
Lost in the silence of the noisy streets.
I have felt sorrow and happiness
Both at the same time.

Couldn't explain but couldn't hide.
It was raining of black and white.
It doesn't feel cold nor warm either.
Only sound of gushing time.

I hear you but nowhere to find.
I feel you but you're never here.
I can't see you but I know you were near.
Woke up in my bed, it was just a dream.

You were just a dream.
Unreal a fantasy built in my head.
Lies of the past experiences.
But the one I would like to  keep.

Redemption

....Fallen short of life treachery, lies and deception. Intrigued by gossips, cheating and envy. When everyone wants a piece of you and drowned by their eyes around you. There's always redemption....

REDEMPTION

Artist: The Strange Familiar

Composers: Kira Leyden, Jeff Andrea, Nicholas Sainato

The night is slowly closing

But my eyes are slowly opened

And I see that somewhere in you

There is a good heart

There is a good soul

For everyone lost in the silence

For every one missing piece

For every will that is broken

No matter how dark it may be

There is redemption

I feel the threat of thunder

But this rain can't last forever

The light chases the dark

Where there's a good heart

There is a good soul

For everyone lost in the silence

For every one missing piece

For every will that is broken

No matter how dark it may be

There is redemption

There is redemption

Oh oh oh

For everyone lost in the silence

There is redemption

For everyone lost in the silence

For every one missing piece

For every will that is broken

No matter how dark it may be

There is redemption

There is redemption

What if?

Dear Claire,

What and If are two words 

as non - threatening as words can be. 

But put them together side - by - side

 and they have the power to haunt you 

for the rest of your life. 

What if... What if? What if? 

I don't know how your story ended. 

But if what you felt then was true love? 

then its never too late.

 If it's true then why wouldn't be true now? 

You only need courage to follow your heart. 

I don't know what alove like Juliet's was like. 

A love to leave one's love for, 

a love to cross ocean's for. 

But I'd like to believe if I ever were to feel it 

that I'd have the courage to sees it. 

And Claire if you didn't 

I hope one day that you will.

- Letters to Juliet 

.... I re - watched the movie "Letters to Juliet" today and I can't help but fall in love with it again. I know someone who does not believe in "Love Stories" as portrayed on movies, at some point I can agree but watching a love story happens leave you hope. A longing for a love story of your own. It doesn't have to be as romantic or as compelling but it just have to be "your own" creative love story. I believe in destiny or God's will, allowing God to take control of your life in order for Him to align you to His will. Believe that when you choose to search for True love, you will definitely find it.... 

I leave you with Claire's Speech on her wedding day...

It Takes A Man and A Woman

It Takes A Man And A Woman lyrics

Well it just takes a star to get up so high
One touch of blue to paint up the sky
And it only takes a master of art
To paint a mother and child

Well it just takes the dawn to wake up the sun
One lullaby they do picked on
But these wondrous things
Aint got what it takes to make two hearts beat as one

It takes a man and a woman and one magic moment
To know their in heaven
It takes a man and a woman to feel what we’re feelin’
And aint it a miracle that you’d take a woman like me
To love a man like you

Well it just takes a rainbow river to flow
Just take something up to catch you a rainbow
And if you got some time and a ladder to climb
You’ll find the rainbows end

Well it just takes some notes to write a song
La, la, la, la, to sing along
But since Adam and Eve when feelings get strong
To do what comes naturally

It takes a man and a woman and one magic moment
To know their in heaven
It takes a man and a woman to feel what we’re feelin’
And aint it a miracle that you’d take a woman like me
To love a man like you

It takes a man and a woman and one magic moment
To know their in heaven
It takes a man and a woman to feel what we’re feelin’
And aint it a miracle that you’d take a woman like me
To love a man like you

...... Sometimes all you need is a magic moment to realize you love a person but it only takes a man and a woman to do it. Sometimes the best message are the ones that comes straight from the heart. You don't need anyone to point it out to you.You just know and will let the person know too. Nothing will separate you from seeing him/her and even if people say you're foolish, you continue to love the person anyway. Until finally love reach others hearts....